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This weekend marks the second anniversary for Morag and I. The actual date is February 29, but since that doesn't come around too often we tend to celebrate on another day - and I'll be away the 28th and the 1st, so today it is.

The last year has been full of eventful happenings - we got a kitten together, went through financial troubles, scrimped and saved, lost people, went to friends' weddings, picnicked, found jobs, finishes theses, got another kitten, got another job, dealt with illnesses, arguments, drama and sadness. Now as the next year together approaches, there is change afoot. We recently found a new flat to move into - one with more space that we hope to settle down into and make into our home. There are job opportunities on the horizon for both of us that are exciting and a bit daunting - some of them require life changes if they work out, but they're all worth going for. And while our circumstances may change (hopefully for the better) the one thing that won't change is our dedication and love for one another. Instead of feeling rushed or stressed or worried about the way our lives are shifting right now, I instead feel excited and energized. I am looking forward to the next steps we take together, and cannot wait to see how they turn out.

Morag has been incredible this year, and I am so proud of all the things she's accomplished. Being with her makes me happier than I could ever imagine; bit by bit all the defenses and neuroses I had built up over the years are falling away, with her encouragement and support. I never thought I could be the person I have become - if you had asked me two years ago if I could learn to be relaxed, emotionally expressive and mature I would've laughed (or cried). And yet... here I am, all of these things, and so completely in love with an amazing woman. And all because she believed in me when I didn't believe in myself, trusted me when the ground underneath me was falling away, and has always been there for me when I needed her.

Whatever the next year brings, I cannot wait to experience it. I love you, sweetheart.